In desperate need for a sponsor over christmas
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Hello, I am a single mother, my son is 5 and deserves a Christmas, but I am only given barely enough to survive on and pay rent with.
I am Fortunate to have a roof over my head as we almost went homeless in November.
My son is an amazing smart, bright, happy little boy and he deserves all the happiness i can give him. His happiness is my happiness and all i care about his him having the best christmas i can provide even if it means asking for help. This little boy is the reason i wake up daily happy to be his mommy. I am such a lucky mother. ♡
I cannot afford a turkey or much other than our basic minimal (but just enough), I was able to save to buy him one STEM fun hand eye development toy as the only gift i can afford, we have a Tiny but beautifully decorated (by my son) tree, we love it! We ALWAYS make the best of what we have and always end up fine in the end (him missing out on what other children have, he is such a sweet boy he doesnt seem to care, I think special time we spend makes him happiest) , though it doesnt stop a mother with very little from dreaming of giving the best happiest christmas she can to her baby, clearly there is still a lot of guilt in asking even for a tiny bit of help, let alone to help a mother provide a christmas that she feels her child deserves hoping a blessed person/family who has more than we do to possibly help us..
I realize I posted this very last minute, I have had a hard time asking for help until the realization gets close that I dont even have more than 1 gift. He knows santa brings gift/S and a stocking and he keeps asking where his stocking is I have no vehicle with health conditions and was even unable to get help from the foodbank or even a second hand stocking for him even if i filled it with snacks or something.
I feel so much guilt as a mother, last month short story short assistance took my entire disability check for 2 months because a friend paid me money (not a large amount) I lent them a few years ago back since they have been working.
-----The government has literally become terrifying , "its policy", offer no help whatsoever... my entire check for October and November and I am 2 months behind on rent and still as I said SO fortunate we are not at a shelter.... I look around the streets I live on Downtown and I cant even hold the tears back seeing how many homeless people who have built up since the government stopped helping at all or even supporting those lowerclass people, people like me, or anyone who accidentally fell behind on rent and was evicted and due to housing crisis, so many families, parents, who innocently went homeless in a terrifying rental crisis. Landlords turned cruel and stopped having human empathy. My heart is broken.---
I am desperately trying to find someone who would want to help us or sponsor my son and I ,we have had it incredibly hard and painful the past 2 years. We do not need much, I've been praying just for a gift card maybe so I could buy him a stocking and a few gifts even small.
I bought 2 Swanson turkey dinners for us in case we end up without a turkey dinner as we don't have any stable non toxic family in our lives.
I'm praying maybe the right person may see this and decide to help me make Christmas a bit less guilty for a momma and a little more amazing for a child who deserves a christmas so much. He deserves to be happy and I know he would be with the gift I was able to get him (approximately 50$) I saved this month and went without some stuff to make sure that I was able to at least get him one gift even if I can't afford any wrapping paper or even tape with 11 dollars to my name until the 1st of January. I was thinking of even making christmas late... but he knows and is counting the days for santa to bring him "gifts" i was only able to get one thing for him... I cry thinking on christmas morning he will think santa skipped him more guilt sets in every day we get closer.
I know Christmas is everything you make it for you and your child and I am 100% a believer that he will still be happy, maybe confused but maybe I can somehow say he left cookie mixes and boxes of baking things for us, I am scared now. I do know children are so happy with spending special time and maybe making some cookies cheaply Christmas day.
I do not like to ask for help, there is a large amount of guilt (on top of already feeling guilt) that comes with being vulnerable to people's judgment. I sincerely dont have enough money to even survive the month....assistance took 3 times what my friend owed me and sent to me. I helped them years ago when i was working full time not home with my son and she had no place to go. I lent her the money from my taxes to pay for her damage deposit and rent so she didnt go homeless. I was in a slightly better situation than her a few years ago before I was diagnosed with some severe health conditions. Leaving me in treatment sick a lot of the time and still pushing on everyday as hard as I can.
I apologize for the long post.
I want people to know the truth of my situation so they can make the proper decision for them especially when I am requesting such a huge thing such as help over christmas, small or big, I am so grateful for any help offered and promise not to take advantage of multiple peoples help. I truly believe if someone can help someone else and ive already been helped, Id so much prefer the extra to go to anyone else in need.
So many people hurting in need.
I really pray the right person sees this and would like to help us even if it's a small gesture. We would appreciate all help!
Thank you so much for your time in reading this, I sincerely apologize, the world is just so sad. I remember christmas as a child and this isnt how things were.
(Photo is an older one of my son who is now 5, I don't feel comfortable sharing images)
♡♡♡♡♡Thank you, merry Christmas to you and your loved ones♡♡♡♡
- Ad Type: Wanted
community | volunteers
2023-02-13